Beautiful Ride

"It takes courage to grow up and become who you really are."

Day 06- 30 Interesting facts about yourself.

1. I'm obsessed with Gilmore Girls.
2. I've started reading the Bible everyday.
3. Lately, I really like my job.
4. Next time I move, I'm planning on getting a dog.
5. My sister is my best friend and recently I've realized how rare a relationship like ours actually is.
6. London is my favorite place in the world.
7. I want to go to Hawaii soon.
8. I think Tim Tebow is awesome.
9. I really hate when my boyfriend does annoying things and then says "It's because I love you too much." That one might have been provoked.
10. There are four people I could be around pretty much all the time.
11. The main reason I'd never get a tattoo is because it would make my grandpa mad.
12. I've learned a lot in the last year.
13. I can't wait to have my own home.
14. New Hampshire in the fall was one of the prettiest places I've ever been.
15. I have no idea where I'll be living two years from today.
16. I love pictures.
17. Tennis is my favorite sport.
18. I could, and did, sit in front of the Eiffel Tower for hours.
19. I love jeans.
20. I love living in Boston.
21. I touched the Stanley Cup and met Mark Recchi.
22. I was president of the Purdue Retail Organization.
23. I have the most incredible friends.
24. I really like going to church.
25. I've seen six Broadway shows in NYC.
26. I've watched the last two World Series champs play the year they won.
27. My refrigerator has had two frozen mini pizzas and a can of salsa in it for the last two months.
28. I was married. I'm not naive enough to think people don't find that interesting.
29. I love, LOVE singing in my car.
30. My computer crashed after I typed fact #29.

"Believe that life is worth living and your belief will help create the fact. "

Day 05- A time you thought about ending your own life.

I have never, ever thought about ending my own life.

Admittedly, there were days that I would have preferred not to participate in but only in the sense that I would rather have stayed in bed than get up and deal with the complete mind explosion that had, at that time, become my life. Not having one of those sorts of days in a long number of months allows me to gain enough perspective to at least see how those days have made me stronger. I may not be far enough removed from them to be exactly sure why they had to happen as they did but I do believe that by getting up and facing those days, it's made a 12 hour workday, a day of laundry and cleaning or a day traveling away from home still seem like a blessing in comparison.

Just keep swimming.

"I can't brag about my love for God because I fail him daily, but I can brag about His love for me because it never fails."

Day 04- Your views on religion.

I was on a blogging roll (...three posts) when I hit this one. I'm not sure I can really sum up my views on religion in a blog post. Actually, I'm 14,000% sure of it. But I'll make an attempt...

My most basic philosophy has always been that I'd rather live my life with the assumption that there was an afterlife and die to find out there wasn't than to live as though there weren't one and die to find out there was. It's just math really...

I have always been a Christian. So at the very core, I imagine that in itself could be considered my view on religion. However, recently, my views have really started evolving in (what I believe) is a really awesome way. I've realized that God isn't just someone I'm working to get to spend eternity with (which, of course, he is) but he is also someone who can change my life every single day. I absolutely still think that living a life that will ultimately get you to heaven is an excellent plan. However, lately I am of the thought that by putting Jesus at the forefront of my mind every day, instead of seeing him as someone I'm hoping to "get to" after I die, every single day is better. I've felt like I've always been looking for "something" and I've even said before that sometimes part of me feels compelled to try to accomplish something just for the sake of seeing if I could accomplish the goal and not necessarily because the end result was something I really wanted. Jesus, heaven, eternal life, etc have always been things I've always wanted, of couse. Who doesn't? But until very recently it never occurred to me that this is the "something" I've been looking for. This is the ultimate goal. Regardless of where I am, what I'm doing, who I'm with, if I'm walking with God everyday, them I'm all set.

"Never drink to feel better; drink to feel even better!"

Day -03 Your view on drugs and alcohol.

Drugs- bad.
Alcohol- bad in excess. Wine doesn't count.

"Every child comes with the message that God is not yet discouraged of man."

Day 02- Where you'd like to be in 10 years.

In 10 years I'd like to be a mom. I have thought a lot about this question before and I think it's important for anyone to do. If you don't know where you want to be in 10 years then how to you know what to work towards today? That being said, how exactly does one work towards being a mom? (Yea yea, very mature.) In all seriousness though, I would be thrilled to have a job I love and being famous or really rich would also be fantastic but when I think about my future the most integral part of it for me is family. In the meantime, I can work towards being the kind of person my future kids can look up to. I can make decisions I'm comfortable explaining to them one day. I can set an example for them and I can marry someone I'd be proud to have them emulate. I can try to be a good Christian every day. I can read the bible, go to church and continue to learn as much as I can now so I can answer their questions later. And of course, I can obsess over what I'll name them.

"Sometimes the good stuff doesn't make sense"

Hooray! I have found blog inspiration. Aka I found a picture on pinterest that tells me what to talk about for the next 30 days. No promises that I will do this everyday but I do plan on going through all 30. I may do a few at once every few days. We'll see. I'm also fairly certain that no one reads this anymore because I suck at it but in that case I'll be less worried about what you'll think. Since you are just a pretend reader in my mind. So here it is:

Day 01- Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.

So I take this to mean that if I'm not single I should not discuss it and no one cares. BUT GUESS WHAT? It's my blog and Imma do what I want.

I am in a relationship that makes me happy everyday. I find myself becoming a better, more selfless person because of it. He is kind, patient and understanding. He also drives me nuts and sometimes I want to throw him out the window but I think that's because he makes me crazy in a really good way. I am a planner and being in this relationship is forcing me to be okay with not knowing and I do think I'm getting there. The closer we get the more I learn about myself and oddly the more independent I feel. Also, he's really good lookin.

"When you dance, your purpose is not to get to a certain place on the floor. It's to enjoy each step along the way."

Anyone still there? I read something on twitter the other day that made me laugh. It was something along the lines of "90% of blog posts start with an apology about not blogging awhile." Heh.

But I think I might be slightly better now and here's why. I've started a journal. It seems like this would be counter productive to blogging however I'm convinced it shant. You see, I've struggled with blogging because I don't think I could exactly define my purpose. Was I blogging to get my thoughts out? Was I blogging to update my family on my whereabouts? To figure out mah lyfeee? I had no idea. And quite frankly...I still don't. However I think I have at least eliminated the attempt to use it as some sort of catharsis. For awhile I think I was trying to but I was also constantly assessing everything due to the reality that Heaven only knows who was reading it and even when I just assumed I knew everyone that was reading it I was pretty sure they didn't care. Or would be wildly offended. So anyway... Here's a photo update of what I've been up to in no particular order. (AKA- the order my computer picks.)